Leaving Today

I hardly know where to start. This whole feeling is completely overwhelming. I'm not sure if I'm going teary because there's so much I'm going to leave behind, or if it's because I don't know what's ahead. But then it could also possibly be the fact that I know what's ahead, and I'm going to be gone for four years - and possibly continue living abroad after that. Then would that be pursuing my future or leaving everything else in the dust? Or neither? Or both? I'm not sure if I'm excited, anxious or just really, really scared. Maybe it's all those things - since they really aren't mutually exclusive. Sigh.

I swear - anything anyone does at the moment can drive me to the edge. Even if it's happy things - because I know I'm going to miss that. My brother trying to cheer me up really doesn't help much - just because I can't stand the fact that he's not going to be there the next time I'm upset. Or my parents telling me that there's a "good side to everything". Well, I know that, and I'm trying to be positive - today's meant to be a non-crying day! Hahaha. But damnit, I'm really not so good at that. Hahaha. But oh well. Hahaha.

I am going to miss so much after I leave. There's no denying that. There's just so much here. I mean, I've spent the last seven years in Hong Kong. And that's a long time for me (considering that I'm 18) - nearly half of how long I've lived. That and just how much impact the people, the places and the convinient transportation has had on me. Haha. Ah yes - and the horrible humid weather too. I don't know how I'll ever cope in Canada, where it's all cold and stuff.

Sigh. It's like I don't know where to start, nor do I know how to end. Or even fill in this gap in between. I think I'm just really lost at the moment. No direction, no nothing. I don't know. Anything. Much. Or just in general really, without knowing what I don't know about. Well - I think there are a few people I would like to say a few words to. (I'm awfully sorry if I leave anyone out. I am in a complete breakdown state. So if I leave you out. I blame that. Heh.)

KGVers

Veronica
I met you in year nine after the class change. I had no idea then that you'd be one of my best friends by the end of year 13. I swear without you having been there whenever I needed you to be there, I wouldn't have been able to survive high school. Hahaha. I can't believe that time's gone by so quickly, we've gotten to be so close. I love you so much and seriously am so grateful to have met you. You're someone who'se impacted my life so much that I can't even measure that. I love you! =)

Dorothy
I can't believe I've known you since year seven! Hahahaha. I swear, looking at the pictures of us before, I could hardly recognize you. You've grown so much througout the past years (definitely much meaner than when I first met you). But you know you're so much softer than what you show. Haha. I'm glad I had you around whenever I needed, even with the ugly quirks in between all the time. You mean so much to me and seriously, thank you so much for always being there.

Nelson
I too met you in year nine during the class change. I really didn't get to know you till later on, but once I did get to know you, it was awesome. Hahaha. I can't imagine my KGV life without you. I knew I could always depend on you whenever I was down or just needed someone to make fun of so I'd feel better. Hahaha. (Nah, I'm joking.) Your hatred of Ashlee, Avril, but most importantly Hilary seriously cracks me up. While I try my hardest to say "Hilary Duff is the best," I can't help but to gag on my words. Haha. Thanks so much for everything Nelson!

Jaxee
Hey Jacky! Hahahaha. Friend who wandered into 7M accidentally. Or however you wandered in. I never truly understood the story. Hahahaha. Anyway, I remember the day where me and Dorothy were like "should we talk to her? She looks all by herself and stuff." Hahahaha. Well I'm so glad to have had met you. It wouldn't have been the same without you. And without the stories of "remember that time when our moms let us sleep over on a Sunday night, with school the next day!?" Hahaha. Or watching the World Cup semis. Haha. I love you!

Kenji
I admit, we've probably had the most ups and downs (a lot of the time, without me knowing exactly why). But I'm glad that this past year it's finally gone back to how it was, before all the rough patches. Haha. You're so funny and I will never, ever forget your 'model' poses. Hahaha. It's so much fun just being with you. I'm going to miss you so much! We have so got to meet up when I come back in Christmas!

Mish
Michelle. I know you've gone - and I'm not really saying goodbye to you now, but you know, you're special so you get a mention too! Hahahaha. I missed you since you left. You're seriously the only person who makes the least fun of me whenever I talk about boys or something. Hahahaha. But aside from the shallowness of me, you've always been there when I started crying and told me it'd be alright. So thank you so much for that. And I refuse to lose touch with you. We have got to meet up next time we're in the same place!

Pam
I know we've been through so much, whether it was the good or the bad, but at the end of it all - I just want to say that whatever happens. I've got your back. I know there have been falling outs and stuff, but you know that above all, you're still one of my best friends. I really appreciate all you've done for me and being such a sweet friend throughout the years. And I really do appreciate the final words of support that you gave me. It made me tear up a bit. Haha. Thank you so much.

Adrian
You left so suddenly to Australia that I hardly had a chance to say goodbye. It's been so different without you here and stuff! I mean, seriously! Hahaha. There are so many things I want to talk about, but no one to talk to them about! It really sucks. I do miss you so much. We have got to meet up again during Christmas or something, even if it's to say a proper goodbye! Seriously. People are not happy with you leaving so suddenly! Haha. I'm just teasing - but seriously, it really has been different and I miss talking to you so much.

Laura
Laura, Laura, Laura. What can I say really? You are Laura. Hahaha. I cannot believe we survived each other for so many years (even if you take off a few, since you don't remember we were in the same class). I mean, I thought it would've been me dead or you. But we made it! Haha. I will miss your energy (not your rage so much, but your energy). I seriously will need to find someone else to argue with (or hit occasionally) when I get to Uni. Haha. But through that, I know you're a true friend, and thanks so much for that.

JennFeng
Hahahahahaha. You're smart, you're fun, you're blonde. It really just doesn't quite add up about you. Hahaha. Unfortunately, you never moved. I'm really not happy with you. Hahaha. I am going to miss you so much. There is no one who can apologize as much as you can. Seriously. I bet you're going to apologize to me for not moving once you read this. Haha. You're so much fun to be around. I'm really going to miss you!

Claudia
You so totally get a mention. My psychology buddy! Hahaha. I swear, I don't mean to ditch you, purposely and stuff. Haha. You're much, much fun to be around. And I love how you react when I get pissie and stuff. Hahaha. You call me a true American - I call you a true British person. Hahaha. (Also in a good way.) I am really going to miss psych together! Sigh. You were fun! Hahaha. Remember 'Billings and Moooooooos'?! Hahahahaha. I still laugh. Hee*

Ria
I know you've already left for England - but you know, you're so much fun that I can't leave you out! Hahaha. I know you do float around from group to group, but I always have so much fun when I'm around you. Hahaha. Especially prom night! Hee* That was seriously a night to rememeber. Hahaha. I really love your optimism and how you are always so smiley. It makes me smile more too! Ria, thanks for being always so happy and making my days so much better! Hahahaha. (That was the corniest post of all! Hahahahaha. But it's true. =D)

Bernard
My equally loud friend. Hahahaha. I swear, we need to have a competition to see who's louder. But then it'd probably burst the eardrums of anyone within a 10 mile radius. Haha. I swear, I will never find someone who's whispers will be as loud as yours. It just won't happen. Hahaha. Damn, I am going to hear you all the way from Toronto aren't I? Even though you're at the other end of the country. So distance wise, you're probably going to be closest. Hahaha.

Felda
Hello my English friend! Hahahaha. We all have our 'Felda Folder' because of you. Otherwise, we won't pass. Hahaha. I've had so much fun in English, not just because the classes are fun - but because we muck around so much more than we pay attention. Hahahaha. But really - the photos I have of us in English amounts almost to as many of your essays we have! Haha. And that says a lot! Hahaha.

Jeuz
Chem gossip buddy! My goodness - chem without you would've been unbearable. Hahahaha. I listened to your advice - and attempted to really live this last week as much as I could. I know we haven't known each other for that long, but I've had a blast knowing you. Hahaha. From  the 'Jeuz Salvacruz!' on stage to the total gossip queen on the chem table, it's seriously has been a lot of fun! Hahahaha.

Ploi
Hahahahaha. I was so scared of you in years seven and eight. I really, really was. I apparently heard a rumor, that you'd stuck gum in my hair. I don't know why I was scared, since that never actually happened. But I was. Hahaha. But throughout the few years that I'd gotten to know you through basketball and psych, you really aren't that scary... sometimes. Hahaha. Nah, I've had a great time knowing you. And seriously, I look up to your aggression on court. It's awe-inspiring! Hahahaha.

Annie
Okay - I know it's a long shot and you probably won't read this, but even though we've drifted apart these last few years due to a whole list of reasons, I still want to say it's been great knowing you. I was reading a Christmas card you wrote me a long while back, and even though it wasn't anything huge, it was special. Haha. And whatever happens - we were friends and if you ever need anything just ask. =)

Garron
This is a bit random - but I just wanted to go... I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU MET THE USA OLYMPIC TEAM! DWAYNE WADE?! WELL NOT SO EXCITED ABOUT THAT - but BRAD MILLER! GOD I'M JEALOUS! Hahahahahaha. But yeah, aside from that - it was great to have known you and for someone to have understood (even somewhat) what I felt when Douggie got traded. Hahaha.

HSBCers

Eusanna
I never knew that through a short three week programme that we'd become friends that still stay in touch a year afterwards. Haha. I mean, I couldn't believe it really. I thought we would've fallen out by now. But I just want to thank you for being a friend when I was freaking out about leaving, and how you kind of gave your 'first hand' knowledge and advice. Haha. I really appreciated that. So thank you.

Heytung-Heyting
I'm sorry, I realise I really, really should separate the two of you, but I can't help it. Hahahaha. It's great that we've discovered a common interest in television - which kind of means that I have to at least make the effort of keeping in touch. Hahaha. (Not that it's a bad thing.) You guys are really rather interesting people, and are unafraid to bully me a lot, which I do respect. Hahaha. So, it's been so great knowing the two of you. I know you guys are leaving too later on the year, so yeah - I do wish you all the best! (And seriously - keep my stuff in good shape!)

Geoff
... or is it Geoffrey? Either way, I'm going to have to see you again too - since I lent you so much stuff. (Again not a bad thing. Hahahaha.) But if you really do visit Toronto, visit me too! I'm seriously going to be so miserable the first term, it'd be nice to see a friendly face! It was great seeing you again this summer, and it'd be really nice to see you again sometime soon!

Matt-Clara
Well you two are just inseperable. Hahaha. It's so sweet what the two of you have, and I'm so happy for you! You two are some of the nicest, most genuine people I've ever met, and I'm really grateful for that. I do thank you for your parting words - I really appreciate it. Haha. And Matt, since you're in Canada, you need to visit! Hahaha. Again, friendly faces make me smile! Hahahaha.

Chun
Okay - I'm not that scary am I? Hahaha. I seriously love being around you and your energy. It's a lot of fun. Haha. You have to realise that if you throw some Chinese at me, I fold almost immediately. But then, I can get mad, so don't cross me! Hahahaha. Nah. I'm teasing. (Except I can. Uhhuh. Yeah. Hahahaha.) Anyway, I think it was great to have known you - and I'm glad that you did good in your CEs. So proud. Hahaha. =)

Ian
I feel that I've gotten to know you just a tad better since last year, and I'm rather glad for that. You're so much fun to be around and I just like having fun (and eating of course). So it all makes sense really. Hehehe. Also - you've gone to Scotland. The land with the sexiest accents around - it's a shame you haven't got one. Sigh. Hahaha. But either way - you're seriously one of the nicest people I know. And I mean that - it's like unbelievable. Haha. But that's what makes you great. Thanks for being supportive when you knew I was going. It's been great to have known you.

Felix
You're fun! Hahahaha. It's true. We need to play ball again next time when we're all meeting up again! You're really kind of weird. Hahahaha, but I like that. It's fun. Also - you bully people too much, it's not nice. Hahaha. But then again, I do like watching people being bullied, just because. Hahahaha. Well I do look foward to seeing you again in Christmas. =)

Wow. I think I'm finally out of words. Hahaha. That was long, my eyes hurt and I still can't believe I'm leaving already. It's still overwhelming, but at least I know I've said a lot of what I wanted to say - so I won't be so teary tomorrow. Or more later on today. I'm leaving today. I am, I am. Sigh. I think I'll post some pictures and then be on my way.

Caption away.

Wow. That was random. Hahahaha. =)

Anyway - best of luck to everyone, in whatever you do. I'll miss everyone and everything so, so much!

Last Day

1:32am. August 11th. Wow. It's my last full day here. Time really does go by too quickly. Kind of overwhelming really. I'm tired and exhausted - from being tired and exhausted. You know when you sometimes have the feeling where you just want to be listening to your music on headphones, stand in the middle of the road and instead of getting run over, you're sent off standing on a beach with the softest sand and the bluest sea? Yeah - I have no idea what I'm talking about. It's late and I'm extremely tired. Hahahaha.

Well I was walking home today, and knowing how emotionally unbalanced I am, ended up tearing up a bit. And the my stupid iPod decides that was the best time to play the song Graduation by Vitamin C. I mean, come on. Seriously? So stupid (both for having the song, and for having it come on). Well, that kind of drove me to the edge - and then went into emotional overdrive or something. It felt so stupid.

Anyway - went out 'yesterday'. Finally got some pictures with the HSBCers. That was happy. Met up with Kenj, Nelson and Jax later. That was fun too. Haha. I do have pictures. I'm wondering if I should post them now - I'm so tired. I think I'll just do it tomorrow, or something. I'll see my mood after I finish packing and stuff. But then again, I also do kind of need to make that long awaited goodbye post. Haha. I've been avoiding it like all the other things I can avoid. But I might get around to it tomorrow. Again, depending on how packing (and my mood) goes. Not likely I'll sleep tomorrow night, so I guess that won't be too much of a problem.

But what if you just stood there and instead of being taken to that beach - you're actually run over? It'd probably be more likely, you know. And also much more selfish. If this post was any randomer, I think it could qualify as a stream of conciousness post. Haha. But it's not random enough, unfortunately. There's still some kind of order, and less random thoughts one within another.

One Week

Time really flies by quickly. One week till I go. So many things I still haven't done. (Like pack! Haha.) Damn. So screwed.

Anyway, got a farewell party thrown for me by Kenji and Nelson. That was lovely. =) Here are some pictures.

Me and Ronnie. I love her. Hee*. =)

Me and Ronnie looking tiny next to our brothers who are making silly faces. Hee*.

Jax and Me. I'm gonna miss you sooo much!

Me and Claudia. Psychology buddies! Psych classes in Uni'll never be the same. :(

Kenj and Me. Hahahaha. He wasdoing his smokey eyes. I clearly can never do as good as smokey eyes as he could.

Nelson and Me. I'm so going to miss the Duff-hate. Hahaha. Keep me posted on that! Hahahaha. =)

Jax and Bernard. See me and Bernard shouldn't be in the same picture together. We're just too loud - you'd hear through. Hee*

And finally - I know the guys won't be happy with me for posting this... but:

They were just being silly! Hahahaha. But look at Bernard in the middle. HAHAHA. And KENJ! Hee*. Classic. =)

Anyway, thanks so much guys - for the dinner and everything! I had a blast!

Okay - onto today! I'm so tired. Hahahahahaha. Played basketball and badminton with HSBCers. That was tons of fun! We've been out a number of times... and so:

Pictures!
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I'm so not happy about that! We must meet up again before we go so I can get at least some pictures to remember you all by (without the fancy-shmacy suits - this year)! Hahaha.

So much to do within the next week. I just don't feel like I can cram it all in - without having a total breakdown (over whatever you think I'd breakdown over). Haha. Sigh. Well for those who know me, you know this - and for those who'll see me within the next week - be warned: I will be an emotinal trainwreck throughout the week. Hahahaha. It's true.

Oh - and if you're thinking about it, which you're not likely to be - don't you dare write a comment that'd make me cry - because I just might have to hurt you otherwise.

Thanks everyone. These posts are going to get harder for me - either that or I'm going to be extremely lazy and not have any posts. Hahahaha.

New Layout

Yay! Finally - a new layout! Hahaha. Okay - I admit it's not the best, I made it in like half an hour. Plus it's black and white (pretty much). I mean I could say it's got the nice simple look to it, but to be honest, it's just because I'm horrible at color coordination. Hehe. Well anyway - it features Korean star Hyun Bin - (玄彬). =) He's absolutely gorgeous (to me at least). He's from the Korean Drama My Name is Kim Sam-Soon (我係金三珣- aka My Lovely Sam-Soon). I watched the Cantonese version because I don't know Korean - but it was still so cute! Hahahaha. I was going to make the layout of Rafael Nadal, but instead I didn't because I couldn't find "layouty" pictures that could do black and white (again - stupid bad color coordination on my part). But yes - see, hasn't summer been productive? Hahahaha. >.<"

Anyway, yesterday night was the English Lit dinner. Only 5 people showed up. We had lots of fun anyway. And I ate way too much. Hahahaha. I shared a meal with Felda, and instead of pretty evenly sharing the 9 ribs we had (like 5-4), it ended up 6-3, six to me! Hahaha. I am so not afraid to eat too much it seemed. And then we also had a starter of potato skins, and after that apple cobbler for dessert! Hahahaha. I am such a pig! Hehehe. I would post pictures - but due to the blindingness of my flash, I refused to put it on. So most my pictures turned out really dark and stuff. Hahahahaha. Whoops. >.<" Hee*. I'm a bit of an idiot. 

Oh - but I'll post pictures of graduation day! Hahahaha.

Okay - well it's ONE picture. Hahaha. Me and Ronnie holding up: our drinks! Rather than our certs. What a graduation!

Ohh! However, on Sunday went bowling with a few of my cousins and saw a number of celebrities! Hahaha. Well - not so much 'celebrities' to all who are reading this, but because I get excited extremely easily, I was like *SQUEE!* Hahahaha. =) Anyway, we saw Bosco Wong (黃宗澤), Myolie Wu (胡杏兒), Carlo Ng (吳家樂) and... ANDY LAU (劉德華)! Hahaha. There were a few others - but I don't know their names and stuff. Hahaha. But yeah. Took some pictures (the quality isn't so good though. >.<"):

Me and 黃宗澤 (Bosco). He's quite hot. Haha.

Me, 吳家樂 and my cousin Stephanie. He was really funny, and sweet!

My cousin Andrew and 胡杏兒. My brother ran away with the camera before I got a chance to get a picture with her.

And finally, because he said he was really busy, we couldn't get a picture with Andy Lau. However, we did get his autograph, due to my brother's skill of getting in between lots of people who were surrounding Andy Lau. Hahahaha. Anyway - the signature:

Hehehe. =) That was awesome. He's a really good bowler too!

Okay - I don't care if you think I'm a complete idiot to go all fangirly over TVB stars. But whatever. Hahaha. I am! You won't believe the extent of my fangirliness if I met other people though. I mean, it would be like *woah*. Hahahaha.

Well anyway. I think that's it from me. Possibly will wake up tomorrow morning to watch Germany vs Italy. I doubt it though. I'm going to be way too tired. Hahaha. But I will try. Go GERMANY! Michael Ballack is so gorgeous. Hahahaha.

Oh, and one last thing:

Hahahaha! I know I made this for his final match in the French Open (as a banner on another site), but it can be recycled for Wimbledon! YAY! Hee*. Yes - I know, World Cup is happening, and I'm interested in Wimbledon. Well - YEAH! Hahaha. Rafael Nadal!!! 

Year 13 Prom
May 19th, 2006

Prom was so much fun. Hee* I still haven't really got over the fun. Anyway, will leave the pictures to tell all!

Me, Veronica and Ria (Masquerade!)

Jenn, Ria, Me and Veronica (Wow! Our names! *Are amused!*)

Veronica and Me (Isn't Ronnie lovely?! With Dorothy in the background. Teehee*)

Jacky, Anne and Me (The Old 8M clique!)

Karen (x3) Hee*

Ria, Ms.Foley, Terry and Me (The Ladies in Red! =D)

Nicole, Ms.Foley, Veronica, Jenn, Me and Laura (RS Girls with Folz)

Nicole, Veronica, Me, Mr.Duddy, Nicole, and Jenn (RS Girls again!)

Nicole, Shoe, shoe, shoe, shoe and shoe! (Veronica's the odd shoe out!)

Veronica, Lingee, and Me (Veronica reckons we giggle too much)

Claudia and James - The Cutest Couple Ever!

Claudia and Dorothy. Loving the poofy dresses! =)

Adrian and Me (Us TV addicts must stick together!)

Derek and Me (Doesn't he look good?!)

Me and Sheryl (I LOVE your dress!)

Me and Jenn (Miss President. Hee*!!!)

Me and Ben (I feel like such a Fallout fangirl! *squee* Hahaha!)

Shan (who's kind of scary) and Me

Veronica, Karen and Karen (I like things with more than one Karen. Hee*)

Manisha (Who looked stunning in that dress) and Me

Julien and Me (Okay, fine. I am that short!)

Jeuz (the awesomest Chem gossip ever. Hee*) and Me

Jason 'Shammy' and Me (Year 9 camp buddies!)

Me and Oliver (He who makes registration fun! - Stupid Nelson skives too much. Hahaha.)

Me and Nelson (Hah! Skiver! I love you though. So so much!!!)

Me and Michael (Go check! Heeheehee* I miss drama!!!)

Mr.Martin and Me (Who's doing this Vanna White type thing with 'the Spirit' - name of the icescuplture coined by Mr.Wheeler)

Claudia and Me (Psych buddies!)

Ria and Me (Ria looked absolutely gorgeous that night!)

Garron (he who delivers the fastest NBA news to me) and Me

Me, Mr.Wheeler, Karen (Attack of the Karens! - Gosh I'm tired and these comments are getting lame.)

Me, Felda and Me (We are proud EngLit students who take too many pictures in the lesson)

After Prom
May 20th, 2006

Okay, so I didn't exactly go to the afterparty. But had lots of fun afterwards anyway. Hee* See...

Me and Bernard (Can't you just hear his voice even now?)

Jenn, Veronica and Me (See! We were all getting ready for the AfterParty even!)

Ria and Me (Such a lovely picture! Hehehe. The night gave it a soft focus!!!)

Jenn, Me and Veronica (I reckon we had just as much fun! Hehe =D)

Jenn, Ria, Me and Veronica (Ladies in Black, this time. Hehe. With sparkles all over! Hee*)

Wow. That was a long, long post! Or at least it seemed long while making it. My eyes hurt. Hahahaha. But that was one fun night. I can't believe it's all over. Prom, highschool, everything. I'm going to miss everyone and everything so much. Sigh*

Karen =)